This is a time of year that’s regularly challenging for me! For some crazy reason, the onset of the cold season makes me feel rather distraught and melancholy.
I dive deep into a depressive hole and I do not want to come out of it.
I think that this experience isn’t particular to me, because there are many support groups for seasonal affective disorder in this area. However, I can’t even motivate myself to join the social clubs when I am feeling incredibly down and out. I honestly hate the idea of continual darkness for about 4 months. I do not prefer waking up every day to chilly uneven temperatures or snowy conditions. I am also not a very big fan of relying on our central heating, cooling, and air quality control system. When you live in a strenuous temperature you have to count on your central Heating and Air Conditioning device to keep you alive. In the winter, our oil furnace is essentially our best friend because I contact our temperature control unit more than my cell phone. I never look forward to putting away our a/c device and having our heating system professionally tested for continual use in the foreseeable future… There’s just something about calling out the professional Heating and Air Conditioning repair dealership and requesting that routine repair appointment that sends myself and others on a spiral. I can’t help but get completely distraught when I see our a/c device being cleaned and covered for the season. The moment when I hear our oil furnace kick into gear for the first time feels something like a real punch in the gut… Maybe someday I’ll transport to another place so I do not endure this temperature depression.